...in a good way.
First of all, I'd like to apologize if you've found some of my previous posts depressing. I intend for this blog to be a place where I can be honest about what's going on in my life, and the past month and a half or so was characterized by struggles, but also by growth. I'll elaborate on this later.
I spent a lot of time since the post "Forgiveness: A Letter to a Friend." asking God to help me continue to forgive the person I wrote about in that post. I came across a book I have called "What Are You Waiting For?" by Dannah Gresh. It is an excellent book about sexual purity, but the lesson I learned from it this time was a completely different one. Long story short, I realized that I had a tie of hurt connecting me to that person. So I prayed for God to heal the hurt and break that tie.
A few days later, God appointed for me to see this person from a distance. It's so hard to describe, but all of the hurt, bitterness, and unforgiveness that I had just melted away. I was finally able to forgive and turn it over to God. I was able to acknowledge that even if the person never spoke to me again, I would be okay.
The next day, I ended up seeing the person and spending a lot of time with them. It was the first time in a very long time that the way this person acted did not affect my mood, and I have no doubt that it was a God thing. I was able to come away from that time feeling truly glad that I had been able to spend time with them, and hopeful that the two of us could really be friends again.
I am praising and thanking God for this, and it has made me SO much more lighthearted now that I don't have to worry about this anymore. This is just one more example of God answering the prayers of His children and working in their lives. How people can make it through life believing that God doesn't exist when He is at work all around us is something I don't understand.
Rebecca
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